Cold Turkey

It has been two days and I have not smoked. In a way I am happy, though I am having really strong cravings. I have been smoking on and off since my adolescent days, however in last 5 years I have been doing it regularly and a lot. See for me smoking is more of an emotional need than a physical one. You can say that I have tried to substitute real friends and relationships with cigarettes. For a long time whatever friends I made it was almost always over a drag of smoke. I constantly try to suppress my boredom and feeling of loneliness through cigarettes. In fact for a long time I did not want to quit because I though once I quit I wont be left with anything in life. However this time I really want to quit because I want to change my life. I want to have a healthier life. I know I am not going to make many friends now or have a great social life ever, but one thing which I can control to a certain extent is my health. If I am miserably alone, let it be healthy miserably alone.